Staring out the window watching the rain pour he is deeply lost. She comes up from behind and wraps her thin arms around his neck. His face turns and as always he is struck by her beauty. She giggles as she kisses him on the cheek and smiles. He wonders when it happened. Staring at her so deeply, she looks away and pretends to watch the rain.

Love is a crazy thing. Her long auburn hair falls in waves around her shoulders, he never has been able to get enough of her. Bright blue eyes that hold no secrets, he knows she would give her life for him. Trying to pinpoint when exactly does that become not enough? Knowing he loves her with heart, body and soul and still be able to break that solemn vow. He watches as she wiggles away to the kitchen to make him dinner, totally oblivious to the fact that he has done something that would shatter her very world.

Still, he can't bring himself to believe what he is doing his so wrong. Who made the rules here anayway? Why can't someone love two people at the same time? As a society we act outraged when someone is honest and says they have feelings for more than their spouse or significant other. If we are brutally honest, the outrage would go away. While you can avoid feelings, and push them down, you can't just turn them off like they never existed in the first place.

He did not mean for it to happen. He didn't mean to see her again. It was by total chance that he came in contact with the tortureous, beautiful ghost from his past. He tried to just say hello and ask how she had been. However, when you haven't seen somone for so long, questions begin to bubble on top of one another until you realize so much was left unfinished. They hugged and turned to walk away....then that small tilt of her head and that little half grin that you remember so well, she says casually, "Give me your number, I'll call you." Now, is this cheating? You try to reason with yourself, it's just a phone number to a friend. So of course, you give it to her without another thought.

Going home he doesn't tell her that he has run into an old friend. Not analyzing this at all, it begins. Weeks go by and all is well, not forgetting his run-in but settling back into his happy, quite lovely life. The phone rings, not recognizing the number his heart begins to beat faster. He answers and hears that wonderful sing-song voice from the past, coffee? sure why not? (This is where most of us would say mmm. maybe not a good idea!) but being in the moment is different. He rationilizes that they both have male and female friends and it's no big deal. However, his heart knows his true intentions even if his mind doesn't. They have been together for many years, never as he cheated nor wanted to, it will be fine,he tells himself.

Staring out at the rain, he comes back to reality. A gorgeous, unsuspecting, adoring wife and a beautiful girl from his past he now is almost obsessed with. The fork in the road is here. Does he tell his wife and break her delicate heart.? He knows he won't leave her, he knows that he has to figure out away of breaking his own heart and not see "the other" anymore. If he could have just been stronger, but the force that pulled him in was love. He loved the other once and with all abandon, those feelings came back full force and he was not equipped to handle them. It is easy for an outsider to cross their arms and shake their heads in the disgusted I would never do that sort of way. The heart is so finicky and fragile. When two souls connect the bond is not automatically broken just because time and circumstance has forced them apart. It also doesn't mean our souls can't connect just as strongly to someone else!

He smiles at his wife while his own heart shatters. He will settle into his happy life once more. He will rip his connection with the other and shove it deep inside again. This time he will do what his mind knows his right and drag his heart along. It will become an exciting, guilt filled memory and he will begin repairing the trust that she doesn't even know was ever broken. He walks into the kitchen behind her, leans into her hair and whispers "I love you" .