Contemplating over the memories of the past

What do you do when you realise that
everything you believed in is all just wrong...
That there isn't love...
That only the rich ones can be loved and get respects...
That your parents occupation defines who you are...
That there is no such thing as trust, friendship,
sympathy nor empathy...
That they are just one of our fantasies
to escape the reality...

What happens when you are utterly hated and betrayed...
What do I have to do...
Do you kill the ones who betrayed you?
Do you forget everything that happened and move on?

It is proving to be harder that I thought...
All the beauties that I saw in the world I lived in
all disappeared and are replaced with apathy and hatred,
doubt and anger...

Perhaps the God hates certain people who have hard time
getting along with the society that we have created so far... Maybe I shouldn't be unhappy..
Maybe I have to be just ignoring everything...

But whatever I do, whatever I try to do to forget everything...
I can't erase that memory..
Even if I read, even if I study, even if I listen to the music that might blow away my ear drums, even if I make myself bleed, I can't seem to get out of this place inside my head...

What do I have to do?
In the society that is so corrupted that you can't do anything alone, but no one would help you rebuild it in a way it's supposed to be because they are afraid...

Ernest Hemmingway said that "World is a fine place and worth fighting for..."
Someone agreed with the second part... That it is a place worth fighting for.. but not a fine place...
I wonder....

Assume there are things that's worth fighting for...
What happens when those "things" abandon me...

I thought about disagreeing with rules that people create everyday...
The rules that bind us from reaching our true potentials...

Of course... there will be consequences...
I think I'll manage though... somehow..
I hope....

Everything will be okay...