You know that feeling when you know its all wrong and fucked up. That what your doing is the worst possible choice you could be making. I was able to fix up my act for a little while, but eventually I was back to the same page again. Starting all over, backtracking all the improvement I’ve made. Why? For what? Why is something so wrong going to have you feeling like its so right, so perfect. Then things start re-playing like your going in the same circle again, and you think its going to be different.  That your going to do it smart and right this time. What’s funny is you know the whole time its not the right thing and totally not going to be any different then the last time. Then your so trusting in your own thoughts that you end up fucking it all up again. So what do you do anyways, just keep on going. Keep going untill you've pushed everything away, keep going untill you lose everything that matters to you. When will we learn?