I have been on a quest for the last month to find how do I get closer to my spirit self? You see, one day I bought this pack of cards called The Answer is Simple Oracle Cards and what you do is shuffle the deck, fan them out and pick a card. They come with a book of explanation for each card and after picking your card, you read the definition and then are to meditate or ponder the meaning through the day. I thought, at the time of purchasing them that 1. I would use them for ideas for articles and 2. Maybe they would help me figure out how to get closer to my finding my balance.

Well, I picked a card in the mornings for about a week and then decided to pick a card each night before bed, thinking that I would allow my unconscious mind to meditate on it. However, each time I picked a card, it always had something to do with the ego, “Let go of the ego” they all referenced. I could not figure out where I was holding on so tight to my ego that my spirit was being blocked. I quit using the Oracle Cards for about two weeks and just watched myself, trying to figure out where my ego was getting in the way. No answers were forthcoming.

Then one day, I read this article on ezineArticles and went to the authors website. Of course this didn’t have anything to do with my ego, but it was interesting and it had a link to another website. What is Mataphysics. Now this website piqued my interest because I have seen Rycharde Manne reference this word, but didn’t really know what it was. So I started reading. Then I came upon an article on meditation using sound waves and it explained the different levels of consciousness or brain wave patterns. It wasn’t until I got to the 6th page of this 7-page PDF file that I knew this is what I had been looking for. Holosync Solution
“… your ego, your collection of beliefs about who you are, what your place is in the world…” Finally, something that tells me another side of the ego, not just about pride!

Further searching on the web enabled me to find other explanations of the ego. The ego is also a defense attribute. It protects our spirit from being hurt by others, but it can sometimes overprotect. When the ego overprotects, we lose touch with our spirit, the inner self and allow our minds, our conscious state of mind direct us. It is at this time that we hear the inner voice, (spirit) but hush it. Our ego remembers our experiences in life and feeds the spirit information on those with positive or negative feedback. However, sometimes the ego goes overboard and instills too much negative information to situations and this is where we get the feelings of “I’m not good enough”, “I’m not deserving”, I’m too fat” and “no one will ever love me.” Things like that, those negative emotions. In order to protect our spirit, the ego will repeat these negatives to us until we actually believe it. To counter-act the ego, we must first hush it or let go of the hold it has on us and start listening and paying attention to our spirit. We can do this through meditation and using affirmations such as, “I deserve good things”, “I am lovable”, and “I am beautiful”. To me this all seems a bit silly and honestly, I feel silly doing it, but I also learned, this is my ego fighting to stay in control. Creating this sort of embarrassment of affirmations to stop me from letting go of the past pains and beliefs of my self, allowing for the possibility of getting hurt again. However, by letting go of the ego control, I have the ability to also experience more abundant ‘good’ things, because the fear of the ego to try will be hushed. The ego says, “No, don’t do that” the Spirit says, “All things are possible.” Click… Ah Ha!

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How Do I Find My Emotional Boundaries?
How Do I Communicate My Emotional Boundaries?
How Do I Return a Sense of Obligation to a Contribution?