For the last year and a half I have decided to quit work and become a stay at home mom. I have a five year old that will be starting kindergarten in the fall, but I went back to work after I had him. It was hard but I enjoyed working, but I missed a lot of "firsts" with him. In January of 2005 I was almost eight months pregnant with my second child. I decided to quit work and become a stay at home mom for my children.

My second child was born in March of 2005 and my journey as a stay at home mom started. It was challenging at first, learning how to stay at home and not getting out of the house much. It seemed that our biggest venture was going to the park or the lake. Even going to the grocery store seemed like a big challenge. But we all managed to adjust.

With six months of adjusting and getting the feel for how things should work, we finally got in the grove of things and this staying at home thing was really starting to work out for all of us. It seemed the only challenge we were still facing was money being a little on the tight side. But we were slowly adjusting to that too.

My grandfather passed away in the beginning of October in 2005, and a week after that We found out we were expecting our third child. This was a huge suprise. Especially with everything that was going on. So in just a short nine months we would be having number three. That pregnancy seemed to take forever. And the anticipation was building greatly. How was I going to deal with a brand new baby when my youngest child was still a baby himself.

Then on July first we got a wonderful addition to our family, another baby boy. We went home and started to figure out how this was all going to work out. My husband and oldest child were leaving for vacation on July 5, as I was due June 20, so I should have had enough time to get adjusted and be okay with the two little ones. So we had a couple of days and they left on vacation.

I honestly did not expect that to be as hard as it was. I was okay, I had done this two times before and everything was going to be okay. Well that wasn't the case.

My head was spinning, emotions and hormornes were flying, I was well on my way to a nervous breakdown. I didn't know how to make this work and not having my husband around did not help matters at all. It was not even two full days when my husband called to check on me and I was an emotional wreck. Needless to say, they ended their vacation early, and came home the next day. Boy did I feel bad.

It was a lot more to deal with than I had bargined for The stress on top of the hormones and emotions was just too much.

To be continued...........