Sometimes I can be taken for an introvert or an extrovert. I also sometimes in school would find it difficult but I was bored a lot and a terrible school. I found others hated the town also. But I always had friends. I was almost never by myself or so I could think straight. If I was by myself I would feel guilty and pushed to make friends by my mother so I resent it in a way. I really would have liked to sit by myself sometimes as I saw some others doing. It was impossible in the cafeteria alas to do so. At first I thought you were writing hating introverts then I see it is the other side. Others can take me for or know me for being extrovert which is really the case and only an open mouth more or less away. I have been pressured to talk to others and the girls especially. I don't know why I should have to talk to them. Why don't they talk to them themselves? Or some guy would like me always bothering and making noise. These people disturb my time all the time and I think they are really shy like that guy bothering behind my back all the time was. And I really hate them they bother me and act as if it's ok and I will love talking to them when I find out. That is not the case I hate them and resent them disturbing me. They can make friends themselves. Also I still have all these kids bothering me and I'm not their mommy. They drain my energy and are mostly depressed. It's also not my fault they don't have a date or so or are unable to communicate. I don't think it's my fault to have to draw these people out. They can just sit there. especially some already have their own friends and why should I exert myself and waste my time. It is a lot of social pressure and these people are not ones that anyone else wants to talk to. The Eurotrash especially others don't talk to etc. but they would bother me about them. I know that's not especially what you're saying. But if you see someone not talking to you it's not really my problem to talk to you as some others have said seeing me talk. Why don't they talk to them too? Half the time they are just people talking to me that are pests not socially important. Not that I am a snob but you see I'm not and then people talk to me. Oh this goes on I'm sorry but I want to explain it like in extra work we needed a partner and a guy would especially pick me. Then another girl came over and sat there. Get your own partner. We were supposed to be picking people. I have been lucky before and got partners while others were sitting there. Yes, but then sometimes I am also stuck with them and they leave the others alone. I would usually wait. They just sit there those girls though and won't even try and get their own partners. Also at the store L&T I was stuck walking around (or she had me on stock really all working but they weren't) I said to them why? The other said oh we put the shy people at the cash register. that's where people go is to the cash register to check out. It wasn't fair I couldn't chase around after sales in there. They weren't doing anything and I eventually had to quit. Shy people can annoy me as they hide and are afraid of things. I don't owe them something I don't think. You find also that many people like that just don't want to talk. And I have asked a girl along like that sometimes that doesn't go anywhere like they say and they complain all the time. It's not good and I haven't done that again. The popular girls are sometimes the nicest. I was lucky to have some good friends before and the Pres. of the Senior Class. then I had another friend when I changed schools and always someone. That is why when I don't have someone I don't really mind. Someone else wanted me to call her all the time about work. I liked her but it's just too invasive and bothering me. I have also found that on talking to a geek or someone people wouldn't talk to is they can be rude. I found that out before and at extra work as they can be nasty. Then afterwards on extra work when other people came over and he tried to talk to them they more or less told him to shut up it is sad. I do sometimes do that and talk to people I feel sorry for. He had been trying to act as if he had a girlfriend and had asked a dork girl out and been refused. He couldn't communicate to some people since he wasn't listening or getting social cues. I think he thought I liked him or something at first because I said something that is an annoying thing about those people. I should have just told him off but I told him people before had said I looked like Doris Day which is true. He had just wanted to try and make himself look important. Also I don't think going out with introvert guys is good. They are too withdrawn. I don't like them bothering me and I'm not attracted. They keep expecting something to happen that won't and are delusional. I notice also that type of people think no one will hear them girls also and talk so they can hear that is annoying. But on expecting me to talk to people I don't have to after work or audition as has come up bothering. I've auditioned before and those theaters don't pay no union card and people won't shut up. It's none of their biz. that's why to add this prob won't see it the French and all eng involved and all not allowed over. I'd been doing Joan before and they don't seem to know anyone in the office either. They have to leave me alone after work. It is not funny to bother me and is harassing me. They know that and stopped it. It made a lot of trouble for me. Some people just won't mind their own business trying to force me into talking to people and it won't happen. No one wanted to talk to the Salvation Army girls and that English girl was bothering. Now they are bothering and repeating chauvinist the geeks. I keep telling them that is old fashioned and they are not any help and they keep repeating it bothering with blacks so the excuse is I am prejudiced and need to talk to them. I don't want to and I need my own time after work. They are people from Ohio/Mich who won't mind their own business. They also don't bother them. I do not have to make friends with them after work. Whoever is bothering is not going to be talked to and those repeating chauvinist. they told me he was black before but I've seen others. They've been bothering for years and as if I'm supposed to be more social. I dont' want to talk to those people from work and make friends around and I'm not going to just for them. And sometimes if I'm talking to someone they'll come over and try to talk to. (Oh but I'm not supposed to interrupt.) I've been stopping and leaving and then the person goes back to their book. I'm sick of them bothering me. So this is a whole thing that I'm supposed to talk to them and I'm not going to. I hate cowardly guys people too hiding and talking behind my back. The French are never being talked to for going behind my back with those dork/slut girls that weren't friends of mine and midnight/2 in the morning.