Sometimes we have to accept difficult things in life, by choice or not. These things, even though they hurt, in the end, tends to make us stronger. The pain of reality is hard to take in sometimes but it is possible when you can find peace in it. Life is not a fairy tale. Movies and stories can not depict how life truly is and all its aspects. However, we can't help but dream about something that makes us happy.

There was an Anime I watched a long time ago. It inspired me to be more kind to people.  Every episode had its own little morals intertwined with the plot. One of them was: To believe rather than doubt. A person is not born with kindness. Their innate traits are greed, gluttony, the wish to possess. In other words,
they are only basic survival instincts. Kindness is the same as growing
up, it's like the mind that grows inside oneself. It's a conscience. That's why everyone has a different shape.

I didn't understand it back then until I re-watched it later. It made me think of other different shows and even real life situations. I remembered the different things people would do for someone or something even when it wasn't apparent. I remember the comments people would make, saying, "He's so stupid." "Oh my god, I can't believe she did that!" "What's that person thinking?" Usually followed by laughter or chuckling. It made me wonder, Was it really stupid?

I really believe in that quote. It makes sense. Other people's actions are only stupid to another. We're not them, we can't always understand. We were not born to understand. To be hurt and to hurt others is how we learn to understand. Without pain, how would we appreciate what's good? How would we see what's good? Yea, there's always the method of observation and learning from others but it doesn't always show us everything. 

Today, thoughts of things I can't explain or predict keeps running through my mind. The memories, possibilities, theories... I have not found peace in them. It seems that when you haven't found peace in something, you tend to question either yourself or something else. It is easy to blame. Doesn't matter what or who, the act of it is simply simple. In a way, it gives a peace of mind, deterring the reality of the truth so you wouldn't need to accept. It can be stressful.

Stress, anger, frustration, sadness... We can feel all of that when we don't understand something. I think that if we can overcome those emotions, we'd learn to understand one day. Overcome not as in to "fight" or to brush it aside, but to embrace and release it in a healthy way. We can't choose what we feel, only able to choose where to direct those feelings. So fighting or burying your feelings would be pointless in the long run. Not in a moment's notice.

Knowing all of this, it just makes me want to try harder. To understand others so I can understand myself.

/end rant