I really havent been on this site in a while. Im not sure exactly why im back here. Maybe because the computer is starting to run my life. I wish it didnt. But throught the computer i come in contact with people that make me feel good. People that i want to be around but are far away for what seems like it could be an eternity at some points...but I still wait. Im not sure if I care if any one reads this or not. I guess if i get back into I would care but right now, Im just happy im writing i guess. The rain is beating down on the roof so hard right next to me. That same roof just last night, probably when I should have been sleeping, held my Cousin and I. Just sitting out there on the last night of November. I cant say exactly what we would be waiting for but it seemed like we were waiting for something. It could be a number of things. Waiting for it to be cold assuming the cold will finally come with the first of november. waiting to get caught by our landlord, maybe waiting for the fourth of July where we could watch the fire works from the roof that has never seen fireworks with anyone else. Im not sure...about much right now. Except as uncomfortable as I am right now I will be okay.