I didn't blog yesterday because I had takened my medicine, and was out before 9 p.m. So here is what happened Wednsday and today.
Yesterday I had only an hour, and a half of sleep in the past two days. I kept my sisters car so that I could take my oldest daughter to go register for college. I fell asleep at six that morning, and woke up around seven. My daughter, and I left the house to take my sister to work around 7:45 A.M. I was feeling the affects of lack of sleep. I was grouchy, and really wanted to lie down. The night before all I could think about was winning the lottery.
After registering my daughter for school, we went home for about an hour and a half (time to go get my sister from work). My daughter kept talking about how much grant money she was getting to go to school, and purchase her books, and supplies. She also talked about one of the classes she doesn't want to take because it seems borring. She really doesn't want to take it because she's scared of the work that she's going to have to do.
I told her that it was a required course and she needed it. As far as the money issue goes, she just wants more money to spend and mess up like she has done her savings in the past. So, most of the evening I was upsett and fussing because I am assuming that she will mess up her school money and she probably will have bad grades when her first test scores come in.

My daughter wants to work all of the days she doesn't have to go to school. I think that she will be making a big mistake because she doesn't have good study skills, and plus she needs her rest and all of the free time she can get to study, and make good grades. Another reason why I think she shouldn't work is because I know that she likes to go out every now and then. Well if she's going to school, and working the days she don't go to school, than she want have time to study. She thinks that I am BS'N and don't know what I'm talking about, even though I went to a university for five years and only worked one job but quit due to the fact I couldn't find the time to study.
I told my daughter that she is grown now, and she's gonna do what she wants so she might as well find her somewhere to stay. I told her if she makes a D in one of her classes on her first test she needs to quit that job, and concentrate on her school work. If she messes up her school money splurging with her friends, or whatever that she needs to find her a job and move because I'm not going to be bothered with her ungrateful butt.

Anyway I played the lottery yesterday before I went in the house for good. I had $7.00, and I was debating if I should by some dope or not. I fought with my evil concience not to buy any drugs, although there were several drug dealers whom came in the store assuming I would. I hurried up and got my lottery tickets, and left the store wishing aloud I win so I could hurry up and leave this hood, maybe this town.

Later on that night I was looking forwars to seeing the lottery results; but I was very stressed and tired so I took my prescription that I picked up at Walgreens that afternoon. My wife said that I had gotten up to use the bathroom twice, and on both occassions she had to assit me because I almost past out. She also said that when she escorted me back to my bed; I was on the floor looking for my (computer)mouse. I remember a few details like the mouse incident and almost fainting; But the thing I remember the most is the way my wife was handeling me (rough). I didn't like that at all, and if I was talking bad to her like she says I was, it's because she handled me so rough. I sure hate getting sick around her and depending on her because she isn't cut out for the job.

Today I woke up around three something in the evening. I was surprised I slept so late. I kept wondering if my wife threw away my meds. Come to find out that she just hid them and said that she would cut my dosage in half, and administer it to me herself. I'm not sure how this is going to work out. I checked to see if I won the lotto, and I didn't; But nobody did. I still have a chance. All I need is a few dollars and the winning numbers to Saturday's Tennessee Lottery Drawing.

As I close I would like to say thanks to all of you whom have been reading my blogs, especially "The Battle Within". I appreciate your comments and I will respond to them as soon as I can.

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