There has been several years since she last saw him. He broke her heart and her spirit. She recalls that, at last, it was time for her to move on, to move forward, to start over. And start over, she did.

She is now married with three beautiful children. She doesn't have the greatest marriage, not the one she imagined she would have one day, but her children are the light in her life, not to be done over or out done. To her they are like little bundles of perfection. So why is there still that hole in her soul? Why is there still that ache in her heart?

It is this emptiness that propels her to make contact with him again. Did she move on to soon? Did she try to create her life with the wrong person? There is certainly no going back but what does the future hold? She gets the answers she always wanted but is unsure of how to continue. Spontaneity was abandoned with her broken heart and now all her carefully laid out plans, plans which included tall walls of protection around them, seem to be weakening around her.

Truth be told, there are now many more hearts that can be broken. Personal happiness may not be worth the fight anymore. Or is personal happiness all we can ever hope to achieve?

Days and weeks pass, she continues on her path. Only, now her path includes longing, aching, and a certain amount of regret. Is there love in her future or should she be content to leave it in her past?

Now she continues to move forward, continues with her nice, safe life, as planned. The only difference is that she continues to look back at the amazing love she lost. Moving forward, looking back - Is her destiny to always be walking backwards?