In my 30 years of life... well for most of it I've wandered around searching for what I felt was important to me. At least what was important to me at whichever givin point and time in my life. It went anywhere from a particular girlfriend or prospect, to money, to posessions, to my children, to this one particular woman. Now, don't get me wrong... my children will always be at the top of the list. Right under God, right above the woman I plan to mary.
Things have come and gone, and long ago I realized that material posessions mean nothing. Not a THING. Social status is useless. It's who you are as a person. Your character, your morals, and most importantly... the people that surround you.
Today was a pretty rough day for me. My better half has recently been blessed with an amazing opportunity in the medical proffession (www.kaiserpermanente.org
)and she is very gung ho about it. I LOVE IT. I do... to see that she feels like such an important part of something leading edge and stepping in to help change the world for those who are in desperate need of health care (www.kaiserpermanente.org
) is one of the most amazing things I've ever seen. In order for her to maintain her growth in this blessing, it takes alot of study time and a lot of work. Which in turn has taken some of our time away. I understand. I really do.
Unfortunately, I let my selfish feelings get in the way just a little bit and pretty much destroyed her study time. I felt and do still feel really bad. She let me have it like an angry parent to a deviant child and I don't blame her. We did discuss the issue and everything is great and moving forward. Then about an hour ago... I found out that my aunt passed away. This of course has happened about 2 and a half months after my uncle passed away.
Something snapped. I was never as close to my aunt as I probably should have been, yet I was very fond of my uncle. My uncle and I didn't depart on such good terms and today I had a grave reminder of what's really important. It's how you treat the ones that surround you. The people that surround you make huge impressions in your life. If they didn't... you probably wouldn't allow them to surround you. Life is fragile. It's literally here today... and gone tomorrow. It's a must to treat the ones you love just as that. Like you love them. To let them know how much you love them no matter what has happened between you, because you might not be around tomorrow, and the same goes for them.
Even if those people don't realize the efforts that you put forth to help better their lives, or just to put a smile on their face.... When they're gone, you'll know you've done everything you can to make them smile and never have a regret. If you go first... They'll hit the rewind button in their memory banks and recognize... with that... they can pay it forward.
These are just random thoughts of a man named Chief. You don't have to agree, but thanks for reading.

RIP Aunt Theresa
RIP Uncle Howard

-Chief-