I am one of those who loves writing a journal. Recently, I don't write as much. Whenever I came across some of the pages…. I am always amazed. Some are silly, , some made me realized. I saw my childishness. I saw too my changed. I am unhappy at the opportunities' I let past by. I laugh aloud at the things I did crazily. One of the great things that I am surprised are the little prayers I made that I never thought would one day come true. My planned wasn't the one fulfilled. My course changed which I never even imagined of ever happening to me. I really cried at the experienced that unkindness was done yet I was able to forgive… I could not believed I sincerely did that. There are regrets, sometimes I want to go back on that time and poke myself. There are those I am so embarrassed to read on. People I have forgotten, where the things they said or did greatly affects me now. Characters I had that I now don't manifest. I saw how my lying caused me almost everything. How my silence was wrongly concluded. I saw how I always reason out every action I did because I always want to be right.
There are so many things I thought I knew that now I don't understand. Attitudes I remembered that I still want to retain but it seems not anymore mine. I have let go a lot and I have gained more. But the most interesting thing I read on is that even the smallest moments I thought ordinary, darkest, heartbreaking is made significant by my present. It is like everything that happened was supposed to happen. There are those I wish I didn't went through but then you say…" I am fine!"
Same happenings to different people are different experienced. I am a happy bachelorette although not being one will be great. Best moments are those shared.

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I have always been wanting to have my own blog and writing articles like those that touches my heart. I do want to touch a heart. So I planned and searched... wanting only the best. 6 years passed I never got to finish one. I learned that there is actually no best sites... you only have to chose one which reflects you and start making it your best site.

I really hope writing here in xomba is a start I'm going to finish. There are times too I feel that what I'm going to blog is already known so I don't write. Yet if I happen to read one inspiring blog it encourages me to share too. One of the things that helped me let go when my heart was broken was reading the blogged of others who finally had moved on. Someone's life taught me, inspired me, made me feel better, knowing that I am not the only who had done crazy things or who has this kind of belief makes me feel normal. I will fill my blog with happy memories.

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