As i sit here
waiting
waiting for you to expire
i thought of you
yes you
and all the damage you did to me
and all the suffering you put me through
and i also thought about her
my mother
oh how much you hurt her
more than me
all the insults and your stone fist
i thought about all the broken dishes
and all the black and blues
all the cursing and everything else that i never understood
my mother said it was the alcohol
but i always said it was you
yes you
all the tears and my body shaking
as i hid in that closet
my hands trembled as i covered my ears
my fingers turned to ice cubes
as i hear my mother crying and you chasing
yes you

my body continued shaking
shaking
until i could shake no more

there was silence............
my mother

how could you
yes you
there was blood on the floor
broken dishes everywhere
my body went numb as i saw her
my mother crying on the kitchen floor

tonight she could not take it
anymore
she held her hand with a knife
stabbed in it
her body was bloody
her body trembled
she stared at me
i stared back
not one word was spoken
but i understood what i did not understand before
her spirit you had broken

i understood
all the black and blues and all the pain you
put her through was over
i saw it in her eyes as i never saw it before

she grabbed my hand and
we walked through that door and we never looked back
never saw you
yes you
anymore

as i sit here
waiting
waiting for you to expire
my mother is here with me
she lets you know that she has
forgiving you
yes you
your brutality and all the pain you
put her through
she has forgiving
you
yes you

(true story).