A week ago or so i got into a really big fight with my ex boyfriend, things had been okay for a while now. That day i remember  feeling neglected, i kept trying to be flirtatious but i was shocked when he just wasn't paying attention. Usually he's all over me when i do this. So my smart self not being so smart decided to think about my ex boyfriend, the person that he despises more than hitler, and say out loud "Chad would not do this." Oh yeah i had just brung it, this is where the hurricane began.

  I left the room thinking it was best to just give it time and apologize later. I know him all too well so i don't know why i was thinking this. He made it clear that he wanted to talk. At this moment i was like Why are you mad? I'm the one being ignored here. And so it became a never ending battle of words consisting of "you shouldn't have..i'm sorry...and are you really?"

  People might think that i like to stir things up and just make more drama, but this is such a false statement about me. I mean sure i can keep quiet and let certain things pass by but why would i do that when i have a working brain telling me to say all these great things? Anywyays i grabbed my bag and started to walk out the door when he stands right in front of me and tells me that i'm not going anywhere until we have a serious talk. I had told him he could walk me to the bus stop and we could talk. For some strange reason that i still don't understand this didn't compute so well with him. The yelling reached new heights, the pushing began and this is when my temper erupted.

  If you push me and tell me i can't go anywhere when i'm freaking nineteen years old, you are just asking for trouble. I don't like to fight but like people say if you start i'll finish it. So things got out of control, violent would be the correct word. I have told myself before that i would never put up with lying and cheating and somehow i did, but with this? I don't think so mister hitter (as in hit lol).

  After that  he's been calling and apologizing and even cried to me. He says it's full proof that it will not happen again, but isn't that the "It" thing to say or something. I just can't trust him and honestly i do love him. I mean a year and a half isn't easy to forget but I am still so angry at all this. The wors thing is that its not the first time it happens. I don't want to be in a violent relationship. I don't wish that to anyone, I've had that in my past and i got away from it, taking him back would be like dressing up as little red riding hood and finding a wolf to eat me.

  He calls and calls, sends text message after text message. This is what people like that do. He even showed up at my house once or twice. Basically what i'm trying to say especially to all you ladys. DO NOT EVER let someone hit you or think that they can boss you around, don't think that it's even okay for that to happen once. It will most likely happen again. I had to learn the hard way, but you might not be so lucky as to get away from it alive.

*I didn't want to make this as graphic because i wouldn't like people i know to imagine all this, or for him to think this is against him. So hope this helped or at least did something in you lol.